lil Jess living in a cruel world

2004-09-17T19:18:00.000+08:00

hrmms..trying to see if i can blog using fast mode copy pasting ;x many things happened lately.. >.< somehow, i miss those days.. N is coming 4/10 *shivers* dun u understand? i just cant concentrate knowing tt u aint w/ moii- *shrugs* dunn0.. nvmx..~

2004-09-04T11:19:00.000+08:00

now waiting fer haohao to call moii lor..l0lx.. cos he go out w/ his bro first.. thenwe go study.. tt si son of moii sho bad -.- bth~ sho sianx i feel like slping =x budden if e fone rings i sure cannot hear 1 =X lol so better dun slp..now afk working in FL..more sian! vv long nvr see moii laogongg lerrs.. he idiot =x lata study..tml shld i study? mon is chi paper ~_~ *fainted* tues is SS..hahax.. mon dunno shld go study w/ haohao or laogongg.. if with tt stopid kuku darlingg then sure i die -.- hrmmms..dunno =/ wed time to go out!!! i wanna visiit moii niece! [hope she dun bite moii] =/ lolx..but she will chase me -.- spank her butt can already~ haha! k bahx i go lie on bed [hopefully i dun slp] xD miss moii laogongg... tonite then update again.. baibaii-

2004-09-03T18:41:00.000+08:00

everythings like happening sho fast.. and i'm so farking pissed today..
was actually studying during SS intensive revision! awwww~ LOL. din listen to jansen but it was just plain self study xD was SUPPOSED to study after sch with those ppl. BUT. fark them. end up? come home slp lah. was suppose to meet him also..but he overslpt. as always -.- he went back to sec sch then dunno wat happen lah.. pissed pissed pissed!!!!! ma de! tml. i dunno wat to do. plans all ruined. was supposed to blah blah blah. -.- hate this man. 3 more days and it's N lvl MT.! gosh. g0rt back report book just now..my grades? passed 3..lol but all just pass grade 5..e rest are U =x i needa buck up man! maybe. maybe! i shld as ken go skating tml.. LOL. =/ anyway he's been asking me go out several times..budden i told him after N.. need to chill!! chill chill chilllllll~ -slack.guaister.rox!-

2004-09-02T19:30:00.000+08:00

today sch as per normal lor..did 2 mock exam paper.. all my 7/8/10 marks Qn i write only 3-4 lines.. then all is rubbish..during revision i din concentrate also... folding paper cranes fer moi darling.. cos her anniversary wan reach le..on da 06 but she giving it to her moomoo on 08.. l0lx..then all of us helping her do.. now my stomach getting from bad to worse... hell! after sch went to wm to see stuffs then came back clementi meet dreamy with ky.. meet le i go home shower n change come down meet them then we go JE.. go there study half way SM called and came down lor..then do do do.. today disappointing.. haiis... dunno wat to say.. no comments also.. go le bb.~

jess is shattered and broken >.<~

2004-09-01T08:06:00.000+08:00

morning~~ ytd wanted to slp @ 9 de =x then end up sms Jun..l0lx...~~ we play play wan patch back -.-" fainted. so long no talk to him lerrs... he pon sch ytd to go back HY see chers.. act filial nia =X budden he say sianx also -.- wat the hell sia he.. stopid kuku... haha.. then i ended up watching A Cinderella's Story again.. then cried again.. lol. =/ it's sho touching >.< haha~ then watch till 11+ bahx then i go see frenster.. many idiots msg me sia.. wah lao~ ard 12 i go bed lerrs.. read mag then He msg come.. ho~ details shall not be posted. hahax... x_x today jiejie i think she coming home cos daddy say de... i'm sho disappointed in my dad. haiis... He said tt if i were to go to ITE, he would rather me not studying. wtf. I hear le i jitao sianx. Say I'm suppose to be in e Express Stream. ....... haiis stress... then now sho many problems.. who can help me? who can i turn to? dunno...N lvl chinese n SS is next Mon and i haven started revising.. i guess i'll use today to study Sec 3 SS bahx.. chinese i'll just heck care it... tata~~

2004-08-31T19:47:00.000+08:00

last nite my stomach prob acted up again... slpt early but still tired this morn..went to sch then meet jen @ bus stop..lame =x sch finished b4 9.30 sia~ haha abit too early to go anywhere.. but me n judi still went to cwp walkwalk.. mad us =/ cwp nort opened yet so we went to library...also not open =/ hahaha~~ end up we come back clementi meet dreamy..then go pak arcade =x i go pak drum -.- mad me.. for a 1st time de i did alright lahx..hahahaha~~ i tio say violent again =/ y sia~ i v guai de ok =x we play till forgot time lor..ard 12 judi left le then ky come...he came tt time i was playing drum.. i took his cap then wear =x then look like boiboi =/ as usual =.= haha~ but nvm.. skipped lunch just now n so is dinner(which is now).. lata tonite gastric sure gonna act up again. but i dun care..haha~ went to pasir ris just now..mad us! wanted to meet him de budden dunno lah. wouldn't care much now... am so stress now every1 stressing me.. i feel like breaking down... can i just disappear? arghx. just now msg jun..he as usual pak badz..l0lx... tt's how we met also lah...badz =.=" my only ex who has e same interest as me.... next time find 1 interested in skating de =D hahaha! hard to find lerrs..now skate de only those 20+ -.- go die lah~ update perhaps on thurs..cos tml nth much gonna happen i think...

2004-08-30T18:49:00.000+08:00

hmm today in sch nth much... morn run was fun.. first time! ha~ was walking as usual, then THT came up behind us and shout (as usual as well). however, we're all walking together so it's messy, squeezy. how to walk pass right? she keep yelling at us to faster run lah blah blah~ watever crap. she even call my name..then call me to run. i wanted to say "Infront many ppl lah how to walk" budden i ended up shouting at her instead. then it was like so loud..lol..after i shouted i walked infront heck care her. wow! =DD then when reaching main gate she kp edna say she blking everyone's way. wth is she trying to proof? tt she's e bossiest teacher in BBSS? well i agree to tt but who cares?

after tt went back to class.. ard 9 was our pe lesson. as usual keep bags then warm up..b4 tt me n ken have to count e ppl there lor.. then count n count keep get 38 but cher say 39..l0lx... then ken count till 36..end up i count till 39 correct le.. then ken say his maths fail =/ l0lx sho funny.. then after warm up e gers played hand ball lor.. e guys of cos is soccer.. handball was quite slack at first..but started to get more energised in mid game... i was kinda been pulled into it lor -.- wan slack also cannot..l0lx but nvm i had a great time. this is how my nitemare begin. my class ger, JN, a big plump ger who everyone dislikes was also chasing after e ball. gd thing was everyone din have e ball, bad thing is, I HAD IT! OMG. there she is chasing -.- 1 time is when my teammate wanted to pass me e ball but sway sway she in front of me then BANG. she hit against me with her enormous body. the impact was like, omg? PAIN. tt was wat i shouted. b4 tt i shouted chee bye lah! =x oops~ 2nd time is when my laogong pass me ball for me to shoot then she suddenly come behind. wtf? like a big bear wanting to squash its prey -.- and I'm the prey. wtf. so i shouted chee bye lah, again. LOL. =X vulgar moi.~ stacey was e goalkeeper. she was superb but her long shots are powerful man and i mean Powerful. she threw from 1 end to another to me and when i caught it, my arms r red >.< color="#ff9900" size="5">Slow now thank goodness =X now is jen slow..l0lx...choose n choose but end up she din get sia~ now i cannot say judi slow lerrs =/ haha... after getting e tee we went to take piccys! =D sho fun know.. duan dunno where he looking -.- his face can only see either half if not only eyes..LOL! lame =x for e last 1 we took, i put a heart on duan's head.l0lx..sho funny~ jen judi and me all luff. then he say "u think fun izzit" haha~ tt's his pet phrase -.- fun day.. when we were leaving JP, we met Edna.. jen had to go home so she left.. duan meeting rahno go far east so he also left.. so me n judi pei edna wait for shan to get t'cher day pressie... haha~~ shan late =x when at House of Humour, my buddy, Jayne saw me but i din see her =x oops~ haha when she leaving she called me then i saw her.. =x sho long nvr see le kinda miss her ya... after getting everything then we left lerrs..go take 154 =p during half way i fall aslp..sho song =D then someone suddenly sit beside me then wake me up..idiot. i see e guy sho lame lor... so many places he dun sit then choose e seat beside me. asshole! haha...heck care lah. then during e journey, judi sms me..hahaha... keep saying i got take wrong bus not..she reaching le..sho bad sia she =/ keep make me..but nvm~ ytd i also tempt her buy polo =X lalala~~

tml's 31st of Aug. My kinda beloved's bday. bah. ard 5+ he msged me say he cut his hair till like jay. i was like. duh? msg me just cos of tt. cos for past few days he din msg me.. gosh sho lame. nvm.. in my blog i wish u a
Happy 17th Birthday...~!

2004-08-29T18:46:00.000+08:00

just now 12 meet teng.. then go down town.. went to far east first.. help tt idiot jn buy thing.. ma de so ma fan.. then teng go buy polo tee from pmk -.- so she can discount 25% from me.. sho ma fan.. buy le then go to cine lor.. now sho ulu -.- bo lang eh cos cathay bowl dunno where.. l0lx.. dunno is renovating or close down. finish le then we go to queenstown lor.. then took cab down to queensway shopping centre..haa~ meet sh n judy there.. then sh so fast buy shirt le sia~ left judy -.-x fainted* LOL! she so slow de.. =x then we walk ard then went to 1 shop.. e guy quite yd lah.. *grins* then e songs he play v nice sia all i like de.. got Ocean, Linkin Park, Jay. WOW! then we in e shop for quite long cos tt judy lah! so slow again =x oops~ l0lx..she choose e shirt then try come out try come out so many times.. for me leh..i see le i wan de then go try come out pay =X buy le then we go walkwalk~~ i go buy bag also..haha damn big sia bth =x

tues i gonna look like boiboi =x wearing jeans + shirt + big baggy + sneakers. hahax..boi enuff mahs? then my hair now~ fringe short short then so boiboi =X

boring boring.. now is my tao hua jie again izzit? wah lao! -.-x i dowan all these sia.. cos i only wan him nia.. ma de......always tio 1 guy le then can long, come out these craps. idiotic~ stomach pain again le.. -.-" my this prob only no name know >.< eeeks!

just now @ cine with teng tt time saw boxers.. spongebob de xD then suddenly tot abt mushroom.. >.< cos i like still owe him 1 spongebob boxers =/ budden... dunno abt it now -.-x

Green Tea's name is Kalson Sin sia~ same surname as mine =/ hahax.. sho suay -.- this yr know other 3 Sin(s) le~ Rickson and Rodney Sin (brothers) know Rickson from Street, also in Fl. then green tea de ish just then know cos he send me email then i see le guai guai~ Sin..hahax =x

i miss mushroom~ =.= long time nvr see him le.... haiis..~

2004-08-29T07:34:00.000+08:00

bah. last nite's post just disappeared..dunno y -.-" too bad i type so much then Gone. LOL! nvm~ will update again lata ^^

2004-08-28T10:20:00.000+08:00

DULAN!!!!!!!!!! bo tai bo ji kena say attp. real attp person is u lor! idiot.
wonder how come can stand u so long last time. ARGH!!!!!!!!!
cb. nb. farking angry!!!!!!!!!!

She Will Be Loved

Beauty queen of only eighteen
She had some trouble with herself
He was always there to help her
She always belonged to someone else
I drove for miles and miles
And wound up at your door
I've had you so many times but somehow
I want more
I don't mind spending everyday
Out on your corner in the pouring rain
Look for the girl with the broken smile
Ask her if she wants to stay awhile
And she will be loved
And she will be loved
Tap on my window, knock on my door
I want to make you feel beautiful
I know I tend to get so insecure
It doesn't matter anymore
It's not always rainbows and butterflies
It's compromise that moves us along
My heart is full and my door's always open
You can come anytime you want
I don't mind spending everyday
Out on your corner in the pouring rain
Look for the girl with the broken smile
Ask her if she wants to stay awhile
And she will be loved
And she will be loved
And she will be loved
And she will be loved
I know where you hide
Alone in your car
Know all of the things that make you who you are
I know that goodbye means nothing at all
Comes back and begs me to catch her every time she falls
Tap on my window, knock on my door
I want to make you feel beautiful
I don't mind spending every day
Out on your corner in the pouring rain, oh
Look for the girl with the broken smile
Ask her if she wants to stay awhile
And she will be loved
And she will be loved
And she will be loved
And she will be loved
Please don't try so hard to say goodbye
Please don't try so hard to say goodbye
I don't mind spending everyday
Out on your corner in the pouring rain
Please don't try so hard to say goodbye

wonder when will such fairyland thingy appear in my life? never i guess.
i'm so bored with my life right now.. but it's ok..lol..
my blog song describes me right now.
I'm single. dun need someone to link arms with.
I'm independant..wuahahahaha!!!

stomach pain..jialat. go shower lerrs..~ then meet dardar~ ^^v
better hurry le cos i'm late!! *screams*

`__jess.lurvess.vic_*

2004-08-27T15:40:00.000+08:00

My piercings got infected again. awwwwww PAIN.! but i dun care =x it's normal now -.- used to it rather.sch's as bored as usual with intensive chi lessons again. but it's normal lessons next week! but!!! thurs and fri there's INTENSIVE SOCIAL STUDIES lessons. god dammit! i hate it!! -.-" the sch'd mad. teacher's mad. everyone's mad. then am kinda pissed also. actually gonna go town today but tt person had to call it off due to no slp e nite b4. man. i hate this kinda stuffs. PANG SEH. (tts wat we call it) shit this man.

nvm. it's ova! it's time ta chill out now. game games gamesssss!!! i misssss moi aij0z! *droolx* ha! hrmmms miss my darling also.. muacks her! =x thou i saw her today =X (lesbo?) well well... perhaps =x cos no guy wan me mah.. so turn to les =D hahaha..... am such a joker man! xD

man like kinda bored now lor...nth to do..afk in game cos working =D upgrading moi skills cos of e darn p2p thingy now.. shit it as well. made slave workers stop playing and just focusing on main chars. now market has no cool stuffs to be bought!! crap! now am back to human (was a wood monkey) =D heee.. maybe am gonna be a slime? or perhaps a rat again.. haha...

tml gonna go town with my les~ we gonna..do dunno wot. but i think probably cancel. ha! i dun mind cos too tired~ then sunday.. going out with judy n sh...buy clothes =D me n judy r orange freakos! =D~ *drools* orange r0x! orange r0x! orange r0x! orange r0x! orange r0x! orange r0x! orange r0x! orange r0x! orange r0x! orange r0x! orange r0x! hhmmmm then going with judy to meet darling bahx..to do some community stuffs? haa..judy wants me to go cos lata i ps her =x then she so lonely (as if worr) haha!

N lvl coming soon..gosh. *shiver* i hate these kinda stuffs man. y must we study? oh crap. i rather it's life like in the 60s xD just work work work marry make love raise kids grow old with partner die. wow! how cool but at least it's simple. aint as confusing as life now.. bah. god dammit again. gonna get back to my game now. ciaos!

`__jess.lurvess.vic__*

2004-08-26T22:05:00.000+08:00

Without u, i feel empty.
With u, i feel blessed.
So much so when i'm with u, i dun cherish u.
Until the day i let u go, i thought about u once more.
Found a new one, but life is'nt the same.
It's so diffenerent when i'm with u.
I'm so broken and lost.
Confused yet relieved.

today my darling broke up with her kinda long bf.. b4 tt i was so court up between them >.<
another prob is, my other fren from sch. with his gf from another sch which is my ex's sec sch.
Love is just so complicated eh? Why can't understand it truely? Why must we get hurt in the end? huh? Why?

Had chinese lessons for the whole day man. god damn boring. shit it. it's crap man.
that THT zhong se qing nu 1...~ like she's siding guys. *puke*
ray they all kpkb so much she nvr scold. BIAS! ha! jn ask me thingy, she call jn dun talk.
wtf is wrong with her? brain cock up? must be! stacey talk to ray, she call her shut up also. wth.
then i dunno do wat i think i talk to jn..then she call my name..i act bo hiu then she keep satring at me.. oh man it's such a disgusting sight having her staring at u. iewwww!!
being bother with the stares, i continued talking to ray then shouted back a WAT. haa!
then she call me to stop talking i "hur" her =x
guess that really pissed her off ya..but i dun give a damn!

my chem just got back..got 27/50..kinda cool cos i passed..2nd sub i passed while the rest failed.
haha...pathetic.after sch i n laogong went to IMM walkwalk nor...buy penknife also..
cos jn borrowed mine and she threw it on my desk and it broke -.-" man...
so i got it replaced just now..got candies too..YAY! *yummy*

kinda obsessed with lesbians nowadays. =x kept talking abt them. omg? haha..
butches butches butches..haha... they're cool and shuai also..(some lah)
well well...wat can i say? hmmmm I'm just mentally captured by the beauty of butches now.
some of them can really be so....manly? (how to phrase it?) bah. look more like guys. k.
i should really stop talking abt butches and get on with my game..l0lx...

and it's also time for me to sleep.. tml is another intensive chinese lessons day. -.-"
*fainted* man I HATE CHINESE. neway am gonna go to the states to study after i grad i suppose. not confirmed yet anyway. haha but i hope i'll go there to study. cos the guys there are hot! and no chinese. no ppl i dislike and there's also my aunt and uncle and my fave cousin! jonathon. he's sooooooooo cute!! looks like mini Josh Harnett. *drools* =D~~

2004-08-25T15:50:00.000+08:00

WAH LAO today damn angry~!! kena called xmm..blardy hell.. fark him lah idiot.
most impt thing is i failed in every sub for prelims.. except dnt. ha! god damn pathetic.
ite coming my way le?? l0lx.. go nap le.

2004-08-21T22:06:00.000+08:00

o.0 i lurvess moi dear..l0lx..who's my dear? guess bahx. >p haa.... today slept alot..hrmms.. =D shiok..but now feelings slpy still =x watched 2 movies today.. confessions of a teenage drama quene and you got served haha!! drama queen was totally awesome! lindsay lohan was in it =D~ cool chick she is..and she resembles britney... aha! you got served was cool too.. hip hop movie =D lotssa cool moves in there.. the other crew's guys were yd! e angmoh, not the blacks. hahax... spikey hair =D hrmms.. the blacks also not bad.. realised that they're good in dancing and bball. got toned body as well.. real cool.. shld go check out e movie.. i give it 3 stars. ding ding ding. LOL!! k larrs go be piggy lerrs..nitey! wo men de aii... but 1 more thing..dunno he is serious or wat de o.o =/

2004-08-20T21:44:00.000+08:00

hrmmms..wat ish there to update? yeyea!! today's da last paper for da week! happy happy happy.. weeeeeeeeeee~~~ *madness arhx* =X mon ish last prelim paper.. now am damn tired =.= nvr take nap ish like tt *l0lx* i wanna slp now budden~~~ i going to read my book! =D borrowers haha..~ lalalax....sho sianx.. tml gonna wake up early -.- oh man. i hate early sats but no choice. needa go out pak badz. wth~ LOL! kena pull go 1 =/ if not i tio kan -.- ahax~~ i go slp lerrs...tiredddd~~ had not beed thinking much lately cos time used for (study) LOL! as if. now it's time to think, a lil only. haa... wat shld i do sia...dunno~ my laopo told me it's better to ahem ard..budden i think it's not tt nice =x dunno larrs after everything then thinkk againx! ciaox~

2004-08-19T19:36:00.000+08:00

today KAN BO MOOD..dunno y.. grrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr
ahhhhhhhhhhhhhh!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! now feel like eating but wan take food dun feel like it already..
wat e hell is wrong with me?!?!?! sickening shit.

2004-08-17T21:14:00.000+08:00

tml ss paper..kinda stress bahx >.< but i think i still can make it to e border line..l0lx...
dun fail can lerss..abit hopeless i guess.... then just now came home slack play fl awhile nor.. play le 4+ meet ger..hahax... we go makan.. she forever mouth itchy 1..~ today i damn kiam pa! =X got chi compo..then morning changing tt time i remind myself bring dict.. then go out tt time going to daddy car, i suddenly remember i nvr bring.. LOL.. lame sia~ then i quickly msg les to bring for me xD heng i clever to think of her hahax~~!! tml ss paper till 9.10..then dunno wanna do wat le.. so sianx~~ thurs is sci papers... also kinda stress... some1 remind me to bring phy text back tml? ty ty!! =D~ slurpps!!!

2004-08-15T19:33:00.000+08:00

weeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee TML PRELIM!!!!!!! OMG OMG OMG *fainted*
LOL am so dead..but tml eng paper so no worries..tml pass up dnt..DIE i haven do nehx..
stresssssssssssssss then dunno wat to do...someone HELP ME!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
wan dieeeeeeeeeeeeeee le!!! =~~~~~~~~~~~ haiis..

2004-08-15T13:39:00.000+08:00

DAMN PISSED..!!!! tt farking person fark off lah... NAHBEH 1...GO DIE~~!!!!!! who cares man. ass...sickening crap..I HATE U!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! dumb idiot...

2004-08-14T21:56:00.000+08:00

lalala~ nth to update.. just now go out wib yane...then glyn call me go watch movie -.-x
dia0 dia0 dia0!! LOL..me n yane do our hw nor..i do finish my chi compo le =D
hahax..tml also going out..die lah mon how?! FAIL ah.. =x
then damn disappointed..tt dumb idiot no reponse 1...he go die...
k le nth to add already...cya bloggie..i love maroon 5!! =D~~

2004-08-13T20:23:00.000+08:00

today nth much happed..farking THT like against me n jeneen..everytime jeneen chi lesson sit beside me.. tht call me change place..FARK OFF lah cb..u worse than e pcb from e class beside me sia.. then wewe told us his prob...like so gan ren but also tt niao ren hai him de..she also f off lahx.... mon prelims..kan stress i haven start revising..LOL! song bo? yes! at most fail le go ite =p
who cares sia..i dun care anymore..tt person...these few days seems diff...dunno wat happened to MM..he idiot. i should change song..to maroon 5 de song =D my fave fave FAVE..
to Tan Hui Theng aka THT aka idiotic crap: u fark off!!!! cb face =DD
to someone special (last time): u liar i guess. =D but it doesnt matter nemore
chillin chillin chillin~~~ forgottn e past n got on wib new life wib my darling~~~ lololol!!!!!!

2004-08-11T21:08:00.000+08:00

wahhh wahh wahhhhhhhhhhh!! stresssssssss..next mon prelims le..
*cries* die le..my chi sure DIE..maths also..
just now dnt DAMN STRESS...all chiong...but i suay...last piece cannot finish..
then loo say can stay back finish -.- i jitao ll...dowan stay..so damn sianx....
so i heck..LOL...just now chiong tt time...heng got MM peii me..if not i die le..
stress till die -.- he got so gd bcos of wat i say he stay for lesson? act guai only..
today got 2 new darlings..l0lx.....1 from dunman sec..same age as me a indo-chi de..
another is 19 chi de..staying in BL from dover ite..l0lx....now i dunno wat to study..
DIE DIE DIE..1 word DIE... =.=" sianxxxxxxxxxxx man..
then i got another piercing.. damn shiok...budden dunno y my dad everyday buy prawn chicken..
wan me die arhx? aiyoooox...i cannot eat sia..eat le will infection de..but i also dun care..
LOL..infect lor.. =.=" now total both ears got 11 holes le..h0h0!
k lah dun update le..ciaos!

2004-08-07T22:56:00.000+08:00

for him de..

2004-08-06T21:31:00.000+08:00

crying while writing..how nice? =D
dunno wat to write. had a "fun" day in sch. fun time wib dreamy.. =D
tml going sentosa tan~ hope to forget things also..n solve stuffs..
made up my mind le..giving u up...hopefully.
just now after sch..my daddy come pick me nor..he told me lots of things..he asked wat if he n my mum is gone 1 day? will i be able to look after of myself? i dunno wat to ans..
i begin to realise tt their getting old n may leave me anytime..esp when my mum is down with diabetes..haiis....he told me tt it was my mum who told my dad to pick me up as she was worried abt me..haiis..mummy sorry for hurting u..i love u....alot alot ='(

we had memories together..made beautiful dreams come true.
i hope tt u remembered them and keep them in ur heart.
as for me, keep me in ur mind as e mind easily forgets =)

Gu Dan Bei Ban Qiu
yong wo de wan an pei nichi zhao canji de ba xiang nianchun zai pu manwo wang zhe man tian xing zai shanting niu lang dui zhe nu shuo yao yong ganbei pa wo men zai di qiu de liang duankan wo de wen houqi zhe mo tanfei yong guang shu fei daoni mian qianyao ni neng kan dao shi zi xing you bei ji xing zhou bansao le wo de shou bei dang zhen touni xi bu xi guanni de wang shu jing wang bu dao wo bei ban qiu de gu dantai ping yang de chao shui gen zhe di qiu lai hui xuan zhuanwo hui nai xin de dengsui shi huan ying ni kao ansao le wo de huai bao dang nuan nuni xi bu xi guanE gei ni zhao pian kan bu dao wo bei ban qiu de gu danshi jie zai da liang ke zhen xin jiu nenghu xiang qu nuanxiang nian bu hui tou lanwo de meng tong tong ge ni bao guan

2004-08-04T22:02:00.000+08:00

hohoho..so tired todayx... went to bin de hse do dnt.. end up play games xD wahahahaha!!! lalala sianx.. next week must hand up dnt le..STRESSSSSSSSSSS ah bth bth bth.. then then then.. i hate tt kuku person.. slp n slp de i wan slap him -.-" so kiam pa 1 nor.. ARGHHHHHH then then.. i miss my les my darling my aiai my baobei.. hahax =p my dotter also xD hohoho... prelims starting le..aiyoooooooo also stress de.. >.< wan stress till die le..how sia.... DIE! *fainted* muahahahhaa i'm so mad..now got so many probs sia.. aiyooo..i also tio confused.. =/ got ling ah bin ah ky ah sm ah hw ah.. omgomg..i wan DIE le..wahahahhaha!! dun care nahx =x bleahx =P sianx shld i go dnt now? dunno lehx damn sianx n tired.. then tt si kuku SO QUIET.. bth i wan slap him again.. sm go orh le so cannot talk to her.. hw go bathe..lata then call back..then bin i dunno lehx.. l0lx...more stress ahh...bwg -.- k bahx i go off le..h0h0~~

2004-08-03T16:01:00.000+08:00

i miss him dearly.................... >.<~

2004-08-02T21:24:00.000+08:00

learnt how to make gif images le..all thx to my darling alice~
here's the first 1 i make.. but.....kinda iewwwwwwwww

2004-07-29T20:59:00.000+08:00

today chinese oral..omg.... still can passssss i think heh.. e cher keep smile smile =.= dia0x.. wahahaha then i smile smile back nor =/ [majiam spastic sia =x] then sho suay~ after oral go jn hse tt time say nainai n ks~ reach her hse le going wm saw ks again..kan SIAN!! l0lx..but i dun care he sux~~ wahahahah!! =X now watching la pi xiao xin..no touch fl whole day seh.. li hai mahx? hurhur..tml going out wib jeneen ky n riduan~ heeee..buttttttttt dunno do wat =/ then sat..going out wib dear,goney and my darling~~ muahahaha *grins* so long no see her le xiang si ta le =x maybe after tt go find jiejie see my baobei niece~~ she is just so kawaiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiii i totally BTH!! hahaha.. ai si ta le..oreo rox! she is so sweet =X dear hear me talk abt her till bth le =/ so i shall stop if not i matii arhx =/ going to 3 mths le..ha0 kaii xin =D hao aii dear~~~ hurhur!
*\\h0neyx ("x") hubbyx ¹3¹4 ³³44`__ [o1o5o4 r0x!]

2004-07-28T22:26:00.000+08:00

arghhhhhhhh been sho stressed lately >.< just got a damn 29 for my chi paper. how cool. i love it! LOL it totally sark lah =.= but who cares abt chinese? the world's changing! so..chinese is Outdated. hoho go away go away dumb sickening bloody chinese.then my maths..kinda alrighty i guess but still.. got 42/60 thats only paper I thou..gonna take paper II next mon. awwww stress.. i made many obvious mistakes in my paper -.- argh cant stop thinking abt it. if w/o those mistakes, i cld have scored! ard 48? damn!! but it doesn't matter. hmmm.. quarrelled wib dear today -.- i dunno y? he smsed me suddenly ard 4+ this morning. woke me up. gosh i was so tired! but i managed to fall asleep a couple of times during that. haa... funny eh.. but gd thing is dear n me r doing fine now~ ho! when i was writing his testi, he suddenly sms me abt his sis's bf called his dad to ask abt propsing to his sis. haha... fast eh? he said they were together for abt a yr or so.. cool... then dunno y his dad say he wanna marry also ah? dia0x... l0lx.. then he tell me nor.. then.. *tsktsk* cannot say~ LOL.. will luff till peng 1~ sianx time to go ta bed.. haven do my chi test corrections n get signed..but I Dun Give A Damn abt it! heh. motto motto~~ lalala tata n gd9~ muackiesssssssssssssss to my beloved hubbyx.
\\*h0neyx lurvess hubbyx`__ [o1o5o4 r0x!]

2004-07-25T13:35:00.000+08:00

aiyoooo...so shag..~ ytd go dear hse there ton -.-" slp like v long but dun feel like i got slp.. e BBQ ultra boring! it is far beyond boring~ LOL. totally. went to jiejie hse see oreo.. she so sweet so tiny so kawaii so huggable..but fragile =X only 2 mths old wat do u expect? hurhur.
here's a pic of her while she's slping in ma arms

2004-07-21T21:16:00.000+08:00

weeeeeeeee am back to write an entry.. so long since i updated? yea~ heh heh =Þ really ALOT happened for e pass days..butttttttttt all went well =D *grins* as for e mail u sent me hor dear~ i read le still in my mail box..l0lx..dunno y still there also -.-" maybe i think i lazy delete maybe dowan maybe blah blah.. aiyo i dunno...been staying back in sch do dt..BORING ahhx...wahaha but bo bianx need hand up soon le -.- then chiong folio look so KNS! =X ask loo help me draw *evil* muaahahx! hrmms.. then going to buy fishy and prawny =x put inside nor (lame i know) l0lx..but who cares? me lor =/ ehhh..then vvvvvv STRESS!! but nvm got dear~ waakaka~ got my les~ my buddy~ my darlings~ my jiejie!! btww!!!! she just got a PUPPY!! eekx! i wannnnn =/ this sat i going her bf hse there see Oreo(her name) hee..~ she is so damn kawaii!!! so small so....vulnerable >.< hahax..need to take vaccination also~ dear 3 mths later then can see her =x but he...scare dogs! shhhh...sat also got bbq..more sianx...~ dunno wat to do also -.- going with jeneen.. then les gum gum ho ask me out i also nvr see blog so dunno =/bbq was last last week settle de..l0lx...hrmmms.. wat else? ky bin they all now damn complicated.. but heng! i not inside =D so am save~~ lalala!! blahx~ i changed my blog song!!! nicey? if not nice too bad! i like can le =X hahax see when free or nth to do i update again.. am looking forward to see oreo and dear~~ *grins widely* =DDD LOL!! ciaox~

2004-07-09T23:50:00.000+08:00

muahahahahaha... criss write for dear blog.... =x pro eh? haha... bleahx.. dear i miss u leh... =p how? how? how? today i go down clementi actually wanna gif dear surprise but she guess till i was there le.. thn no more surprise le.. bleahx... but overall hope she is happy =) hehe... she pei me for quite sometime thn we had a wonderful time i think keke... >.< after awhile she go back home le.. thn after tat i stay at her staircase there for quite long la... thn go coffee shop relax awhile.. haha... thn she ask me faster go home... >.< thn i go loh... haha.. thn reach home le i go fix the internet thing thn finally can online le... hehe... thn help dear flower in oz thn play fl with dear nohx... bleahx... dear help me lvl to 16 thn she go orh orh le.. i oso gonna orh orh soon.. go dreamland find my dear >.< dear arhx!!!! i miss u!!!!!!!!

2004-07-04T09:52:00.000+08:00

ytd jiejie actually wanna come home de..budden cos of e father kpkb her she changed her mind.. so she last min call me to meet her @ ps -.- so i chiong down nor =/
l0lx then reach le we go eat..~ then go gai gai for goney de pressie..
she choose de hor..so gina >.< dunno goney will dare wear notx =/ LOL!!
after tt we go see e animal prints de products.. wan buy p pouch~~ thenx i chose e same 1 as her bf wan de..l0lx...so funny =/ she try to phsyco me to change budden i nvr =p
lalala~~ budden tt idiotic salesperson serving a later customer first then we in a rush so nvr get..l0lx... =p after tt she go get her stuffs i chiong go cine find dear they all.. reach le dear they all not there..they go walk walk bahx.. so i go talk to ru, boonieee, kah yee and mice~~ =p l0lx.. ruru keep missing her silk then pekcek call boon catch for her..l0lx.... then he bend down make me cannot do out -.- then i hit his butt..l0lx.... hit le also no use then i pull down his pants =x still no reaction i kick him... also no sia.. then i push his butt in.. call him to suck in air (cos he got yi da li) LOL!! i finally squeezed out... =D passed goney his pressie then find dear~~ not long after tt go watch movie nor.. during e movie, got afew things tt happened... vv emotionally sia we 2..l0lx..not cos of movie =x lalala~~~ after tt we went up raiders again find ru they all.. to find them outside talking..ru sitting on top of boon... then dear ask boon y keep shaking (cos b4 tt dear n boon bought condoms) ahem* LOL!! so me n dear think y y already =X oops..hahax.. then jojo came wib e chao ah gua tt time meet me n ru wib boon de...so............. ER XIN!!! then we nvr do anything sit there talk talk.. boon go talk to him cos tt time in sch he push alice he dun dare admit.. talk le then he hum ji dun dare talk to us le.. then after we left he go tell his "boss" say we bully him..cock lehx.... LOL!! ham cheese eh ah gua first time see!! actually not first lah..all ah gua r ham cheese =/ bwg? yesh!! l0lx... tml dear go sch le.. left me >.< i no sch~~~ maybe go gai gai wib my alice dear? xD

2004-07-03T11:59:00.000+08:00

lalala..ytd was kinda a nice day bahx? dear came pick me then we go cine~~
after tt we play nor..then gone,ling,boon n jojo came up..hahax..
b4 tt boon call ask us wan eat not..tot he so gd wan buy up gib us -.-
budden is call us go down eat..but we lazy so no go...lingz excepted me to sms her ask her buy =x lolx..budden i tot she heard e convo then i nvr sms her
they came up le then we play nor..awhile later me n ling go down eat..she pei me then we ta bao gib dear~~ l0lx.. he ytd like off form? =/ no comments >.<
ard 7+ bahx..we told them we go toilet..go till 8+ back =X
wahaha!! actually is we go take pics =x hahax...~~~

2004-06-30T17:26:00.000+08:00

i misssssssssssssssssss my darling!!!
wahaha i'm getting mad!! >.<
my kuku artefact haven finito.. wth..~
mon go sch tio caught hair..LOL!!
my baobei kim moh ish GONE!! g o n e.! arhxx.. >.<
but nvm~ i go home redye to reddish brown..LOL
go sch again..till today bo tio caught =D
weeeeeeeee..~ tml ish a NICE day~~ n i mean a N I C E one! =)
dear de admission approved le..tml he go to sch there do admin things bahx..~
thenx tml also ish our 2nd mth anniversary!!
shuang xi ling men wors... =D~~ heh!!
*muackiesssss!! >.<
n!!!!! i love my nites meimeii!!! *blush* =x

2004-06-26T21:43:00.000+08:00

sadded sadded sadded.. haiis >.<~~~
shld i join inline hockey? to forget abt my unhappiness =( haiix...
how? i dunno.. more n more problemsI don't understand why

Usher - Burn

See it's burning me to hold onto this
I know this is something I gotta do
But that don't mean I want to
What I'm trying to say is that I-love-you I just
I feel like this is coming to an end
And its better for me to
Let it go now than hold on and hurt you
I gotta let it burn

[Verse 1]
It's gonna burn for me to say this
But it's comin from my heart
It's been a long time coming
But we done been fell apart
Really wanna work this out
But I don't think you're gonna change
I do but you don't
Think it's best we go our separate ways
Tell me why I should stay in this relationship
When I'm hurting baby, I ain't happy baby
Plus there's so many other things I gotta deal with
I think that you should let it burn

[Chorus]
When the feeling ain't the same and your body don't want to
But you know gotta let it go cuz the party ain't jumpin' like it used to
Even though this might bruise you
Let it burn
Let it burn
Gotta let it burn

Deep down you know it's best for yourself but you
Hate the thought of her being with someone else
But you know that it's over
We knew it been through
Let it burn
Let it burn
Gotta let it burn

Sendin' pages I ain't supposed to
Got somebody here but I want you
Cause the feelin ain't the same find myself
Callin' her your name
Ladies tell me do you understand?
Now all my fellas do you feel my pain?
It's the way I feel
I know I made a mistake
Now it's too late
I know she ain't comin back
What I gotta do now
To get my shorty back
Ooo ooo ooo ooooh
Man I don't know what I'm gonna do
Without my booo
You've been gone for too long
It's been fifty-leven days, um-teen hours
Imma be burnin' till you return (let it burn)

[Chorus]

I'm twisted cuz one side of me is tellin' me
that I need to move on
On the other side I wanna break down
and cry (ooooh)
I'm twisted cuz one side of me is tellin' me
that I need to move on
On the other side I wanna break down and cry (yeah)

Ooh ooh ooh ooh ooh oooh
Ooh ooh oooh (can ya feel me burnin'?)
Ooh ooh ooh oooh ooh oooh

So many days, so many hours
I'm still burnin' till you return
now.. i h8 tt farkin bytch!!!
crap lah. go long pia better lah u!!! zzzzzzzzzzz~!! fark u.

2004-06-25T19:54:00.000+08:00

h0h0.. finally updating my blog ya?
added some cute stuffs in it.. changed my counter n clock to orange!!
yesh!! my fave color!!! wahahaha!
i'm mad abt orange ya? uh huh uh huh~~ =D *grins*
hmmm.. real bad things happened these days.. kept quarrelling ya?
hate it! really hate it! more stuffs surfacing.. awwww..i hate it too!
hard to describe it here but heck! tml's sat n i'm gonna go skating!!
heh... been a long time since i skated..yep~~ gonna skate real long tml =)

2004-06-16T17:45:00.000+08:00

damn i'm sho worried yet pissed off by some liar..
worried cos of my hubbyx.! alamakx..he say he fainting... dia0x..
sho worried now.. how? how he's alright bahx.. slp well k?
dear arhx..ur nitemare wun come true de..nvr ever will...
then i dun wanna see tt person anymore also..
hmmm some ppl just sux nor..they lie then act innocent? hate those... dohx.
another type ish...av looking but guys ard..(alright lah) but! majiam playing them seh.
dunno how to say -.-x pathetic is e word perhaps? l0lx. wotever.
who cares? read this blog and get lost! this entry sux cos it's filled with hatred!!
feel like killing tt liar. use e knife n slide it over e body. leaving cuts all over.
thenn apply salt! how cool!! after tt tie tt person up and throw into e sea n drown.
woah! aint i cruel? but tt's how we gotta deal wib those peeps.~ bahx.

2004-06-16T08:45:00.000+08:00

i miss him still~~ >.< lata gonna finish up all my hw!! LOL
LOL!! think can? i dunno also ~_~ l0lx~ lata thenx update~

2004-06-15T22:53:00.000+08:00

i love my hubby lots!! =)

2004-06-13T14:38:00.000+08:00

my happiness ish back? l0lx..~ back to stopidboi le...
now cheery also back wib qy... shuang xi ling men? hahax (wl say 1)
some more ish he help de wor.. i'm sho proud of him =D
also wanna thx boonieee for helping me n him get back together..
u did alot for us =D hen gan xie ni... our thing almost hai dao u n ruru =x
paiseh wor boonieee..hahax... but now u n her cannot separate each other also le..
hahax...~ weeeeeeeeeeee.. budden some things still left in my heart.
tt only wl know bahx.. haiis... think le also dunno wat to do? =~
missing him...~

tt's e ugly me..hahax! =/

tt's jerjer e jet plane aka Squirt aka Sunflower aka Jeremy

2004-06-12T10:46:00.000+08:00

my cough is getting from bad to worse..haiis
feel like dying..arghhhhhhhhhhh!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
haix..i dun wanna think too much also.. my hopes? dunno gone to where
today wan go movie de..but daddy dun let me go out. >.<
say ytd he heard me cough till v jialat. cos i nvr slp (he dunno)
hahax..i keep waking up... talked to ger for quite long bahx?
now i see things all blur blur..sekali i tio TB..tweet!! r0x!
now my cough...every cough my lungs vvvv pain =~
everynite cry myself to slp..isnt worth it bahx... haix..
didnt wan such things to happen at all. din expect also.
maybe after this, i wun fall in love again... nvr again..
even if, fall in love wib a ger ger =D heh...
like tt then can understand each other more then maybe no quarrels n such bahx.
maybe i'm dying young. maybe i leaving this world soon i dunnox.
just hope tt e day will come soon so tt all my troubles will be gonex.~
i've been missing him since e day we're over. i dunno y..till now i still do?
haiis..i've done e most stopidest things!! argh! mad @ myself i suck!!!
everynite look @ e pic..looking @ u made me think of u i smiled.
but as i look i think abt those stuffs i cried. haiis.. WHY?!?!
gonna be mad soon. gonna die soon. who will care abt this dumb stopid ger? nobody~

2004-06-11T22:22:00.000+08:00

eeekx.. just now cough till siao~~ alamak i think i dying le.. l0lx.~!
Dying Young. wee u weet!! =D~ now coughing till face red red. sianx....
lalala just now go cine wib stopidmei dh n dearie..~
now on f0ne wib dotter.. tt si gina luffing @ me cough then imitate me..
nehneh de =X just now @ cine.. i shout dh NEHNEH till v loud seh =x
wahahaha!! then everyone look at me @_@ wahahaha!!

sho sianx.. tml go movie wib dearie,dh,stopidmei,jer bahx.. l0lx..~
today din make it cos i nua too long @ home..paisehx arhx =X
hmm then when having lunchiee..i keep suan jer l0lx..~ say he ish flower
sunflower =X then say he look like squirt =D wahaha! cutie nehx!!

jeremy81 aka sunflower aka squirt.. hahaha!! make sure he dun see this =X

2004-06-10T20:29:00.000+08:00

more of my love.. handsome right? l0lx =D~

another of my love~~ he's e most right 1

the left 1 =D

the only Guy~! heh..

weeeeee i have so many loves.. =X
even tt kuku dearie ish jealous.. l0lx. =/ bleahx.
tml going movie wib them..watch harry pottiee wors..! weeeee~!! =X
k larrs tml then update. =D miss him~!

2004-06-10T11:26:00.000+08:00

tweet! now i'm like a small biride.. freeeeeeeeeee le!!! hehe~
hmmm.. joy? weeeeeeee!! =X i'm mad? yah!!
tml outing? l0lx.. going out wib mimi, didi they all..~
chris de mama go operation this morning.. dunno ok le not?
hmm..then he call me go pei him nor.. budden so early i still wan nua de...
he haven slp then hos sho nosiy how to slp seh?
then i tell him after op le he pei his mama awhile then he go home koon..
afterwards then see how meet me lor..~

now i feel so tired.. feel like slping =x
but i have to wait for ger's papa go home then can go out wib her.
sianx! must wait n wait lata sekali no go then i sian ½
diongx! hmm.. then i go skate? l0lx.. long time no go skate le..
skate then see ppl play bball nor.. also long time no see le...
since tt time he last sent me home i nvr see le =/

now so boring... shld i watch tv? watch movie? dunnox!
dunno dearie got eat not... he nvr eat tml go poke him..
poke till he die die!! =X still say he wan kacha me -.-
dunno who die first lah hor? l0lx..~ of cos ish xiao winson die nor..
now gort xiao winson da winson.. i messy liaox. >.< l0lx!

2004-06-09T14:42:00.000+08:00

nvr had a dream come thru, till e day tt i found u.
such a beautiful song..used to describe dreams tt came thru =)
i found my dream again..he was my dream
once again it was fulfilled =D heeheex

whenever i see those stuffs..they remind me of him
haiis.."eggy" told me to keep them away..if not throw them
but i could not bear to cos they're e only things tt remind me of him
how i wish i could forget abt him and love someone else wholeheartedly
he'll gib me time bahx.. weeeeeeeeeee..~~~

tml ish my jiejie de bday.. rl jiejie
she old le wor.. 23 =D hahax..
jiejie ahh..sing song gib u =X

Happy Birthday to You
Happy Birthday to You
Happy Birthday to Josephine
Happy Birthday to You

zhu ni nian nian you jing ri
kuai gao zhang da =X
earn more more $$
can get married wib ur tt winson
LOL!! see le dun scold me arhx. my butt still wan one =p

2004-06-08T20:00:00.000+08:00

now i know wat i wan =D i wan him. and only him.
he's e 1 who shows e most concern for me thru out my "depression" =x
hahax..~ heeeeee..... =D~

u better eat horx. u eat then i'll eat =X
just now cook eggy =/ l0lx.. then i kena burn
weeeee..~~~!! lousy mahx i dun cook =/

then now..keep coughing...
dunno when my sickness will go away..
take e medicine like no help at all? dohx.
eat already become even more worse lehx ~_~
wahahaha!! 6/6 nice nice date wor...~

*muackiesss* miss him~!

2004-06-08T13:22:00.000+08:00

my new love. isn't he charming? =D~

was our pic last time. =)

2004-06-08T11:23:00.000+08:00

haix.. wo de xing zai ku... =~

2004-06-07T23:25:00.000+08:00

death death death. weeeeeeee~!!

2004-06-07T23:12:00.000+08:00

u were like a glowing candle to me
always giving me light and warm
ever since i found u
life got better for me
but things just had to change
u left and i got scare again
i wouldn't wan to get hurt again
can i just leave this place forever?
i just wan u to know
that u mean alot to me
now and forever and the promise we made
shall stay in my heart forever

True Love Never Has An Ending

how i wish i could hold u in my arms again
never gonna let go of u anymore
how i hope and wish
but i know this wish of mine will never come true
not again and never will it happen ever
my last wish is for u to stay happy
without me, find someone new
happiness has left me and i hope u find yours

loving someone is difficult
being love is easy
but how common do u find someone u love and love u?
i found mine and was gone
giving up all hopes now.

2004-06-07T13:59:00.000+08:00

dunno wat i'm doing.. haiis..~ >.<~
lost. totally lost.

2004-06-06T20:44:00.000+08:00

hmmm..nth much happened... slpt and slpt... now coughing like mad l0lx... going to slp early again.. b o r i n g . . .~~ just now jia xiang record his msg to me then send me.. l0lx.. just took my med now abit seh =/ waiting for him to go home.. 6/6 next date w0r.. weeeeeeeeeeeee~!!! ish my darling pris de bday.. also another new beginning for me lo.. hee...~ h0pe everything come out right and e way tt we wan it to turn out =D miss him..!~

1st Ladi - Never Be Replaced

Baby i love you and I'll never let you go
But if I have to, boy I think that you should know
All the love we've made will never be erased
And I promise you that you will never be replaced

Baby i love you and I'll never let you go
But if I have to, boy I think that you should know
All the love we've made will never be erased
And I promise you that you will never be replaced

I love you, yes I do
I'll be with you as long as you want me to
until the end (the end) of time (of time)

From the day I met you I knew we'd be together
And now I know I wanna be with you forever
I wanna marry you and I wanna have your kids
Thinking never compare to the feeling I could get this
I can say I'm truly happy to this day
You make me think that I could live my life like this everyday
There's never been a doubt in my mind
That I regret ever having you by my side
But if the day comes that I have to let you go
I think there's something I should probably let you know
Thet everyday that I spend with you
I will miss you cuz I'm happy that I had you at all

Baby i love you and I'll never let you go
But if I have to, boy I think that you should know
All the love we've made will never be erased
And I promise you that you will never be replaced

Baby i love you and I'll never let you go
But if I have to, boy I think that you should know
All the love we've made will never be erased
And I promise you that you will never be replaced

I love you, yes I do
I'll be with you as long as you want me to
until the end (the end) of time (of time)

2004-06-06T20:10:00.000+08:00

1st Ladi - Never Be Replaced

Baby i love you and I'll never let you go
But if I have to, boy I think that you should know
All the love we've made will never be erased
And I promise you that you will never be replaced

Baby i love you and I'll never let you go
But if I have to, boy I think that you should know
All the love we've made will never be erased
And I promise you that you will never be replaced

I love you, yes I do
I'll be with you as long as you want me to
until the end (the end) of time (of time)

From the day I met you I knew we'd be together
And now I know I wanna be with you forever
I wanna marry you and I wanna have your kids
Thinking never compare to the feeling I could get this
I can say I'm truly happy to this day
You make me think that I could live my life like this everyday
There's never been a doubt in my mind
That I regret ever having you by my side
But if the day comes that I have to let you go
I think there's something I should probably let you know
Thet everyday that I spend with you
I will miss you cuz I'm happy that I had you at all

Baby i love you and I'll never let you go
But if I have to, boy I think that you should know
All the love we've made will never be erased
And I promise you that you will never be replaced

Baby i love you and I'll never let you go
But if I have to, boy I think that you should know
All the love we've made will never be erased
And I promise you that you will never be replaced

I love you, yes I do
I'll be with you as long as you want me to
until the end (the end) of time (of time)

2004-06-06T17:50:00.000+08:00

Fire. Impulsive. Unlike Air, you do jump before you
look. When you have something in mind, you
won't let go. You have a strong will, and will
do anything to get what you want. From time to
time you can forget that other people have
feelings too, but at most, you're a happy
jumping friend.

What is your element?
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2004-06-05T20:23:00.000+08:00

t0day ger c0me my hse..say wan slp but bo slp hai w0 pack ro0m till so xin ku >.< l0lx but nvm n0w clean le..~ after tt we meet birdie @ clementi station.. he reach work le then me n ger go wisma there eat lunch.. i order al0t for dotter =X then we eat till er..(die) =X then she help me eat mine also ..wahahaha!! after tt walk go lid0 find birdie talk talk =x he ultimate slacker sia! whahaha!! l0lx.. then find le e supervisor there sia.. =/ so me n ger go far east n0r.. i g0 last min pierce ear again =X 10 h0les le.. weeeeeeeeeeee..!!! =D hmmm.. then next week g0 gai gai wib d0tter againx.. h0h0~~ we g0 back lid0 find bird he g0 eat dinner.. hmmmm.. then he help ger buy ciggs n0r... me n ger b4 tt t0ok piccys.. yay!!! =D~ nicey nicey! then we g0 cine n0r.. b o r i n g . . .~~ hmmm.... then after tt i sian i tired... jie call me ask me where me.. wan me go ps find her -.- then she wib wins0n..l0lx.. ask me wan g0 geylang n0t.. l0lx.. g0 there d0 wat seh? be prostitute ah? duhx.! wahahaha!! then i anyh0w take bus h0me n0r.. then i g0 buy panadols again cos run out le.. n0w ear pain pain >.<~ g0 take panadols le then g0 ko0n.. nitey! miss him..~!! =(

2004-06-04T21:13:00.000+08:00

hopes r like dreams. u can think of them n even imagine them..
also making them come true. tt's e main thing abt dreams..
try hard n fight of ur dreams. but r u willing to do it?
fulfilling a dream is hard but wib e will, u'll succeed. =)
i have faith in u n myself..
Never had a Dream Come True till the Day that I Found You

2004-06-04T16:52:00.000+08:00

weeeeeeee first time took 4 panadols =X go le bb..~

2004-06-04T15:20:00.000+08:00

Clay Aiken - The Way

Something about the way you look tonight,
Something about the way that I can't take my eyes off you.
Something about the way your lips invite. Maybe it's the way
that I get nervous when you're around, and I want you to be mine.
And if you need a reason why.

It's in the way that you move me,
and the way you tease me,
the way that I want you tonight.
It's in the way that you hold me
and the way that you know me
When I can't find the right words to say.

You feel it in the way. Ohh... you feel it in the way...

Something about how you stay on my mind,
Something about the way that I whisper your name when I'm asleep
Ohh girl... Maybe it's the look you get in your eyes, ohh baby it's the
way that makes me feel to see you smile... And the reasons they may
change, but what I'm feeling stays the same.

It's in the way that you move me,
and the way you tease me,
the way that I want you tonight.
It's in the way that you hold me
and the way that you know me
When I can't find the right words to say.

You feel it in the way... Ohh... You feel it in the way...

I can't put my fingers on just what it is that makes me love you
you baby.. so don't ask me to describe, I get all choked up inside...
just thinkin bout the way....

It's in the way that you move me and the way that you tease me
The way that I want you tonight... It's in the way that you hold me
and the way that you know me
When I can't find the right words to say.

When you move me and you tease me ... the way...
Feel it in the way... Something about the way you look tonight...
nothing more to say than I feel it in the way...

2004-06-04T15:15:00.000+08:00

my baobei ish only for when i sad i hug him de..~ these few days keep hugging him cry haiis >.<~ i really dunno wat to do le... smth's r d0ne but shall n0rt be said... =) haiis... lata go cut pattern pattern =X weeeeeeeeeeeeeee....!!!!!~~

2004-06-03T22:13:00.000+08:00

i dunno wat to say... feel like got stabbed badly.. hais... >.<~ just now think think.. i dunno i dunno i dunno >.< see my maomao sho kelian.. song ish My Immortal.. i cried nor >.<~~~ haiis.... y things turn out sho complicated? WHY?!?!
maybe i shld go back to church... hais.. clear my head bahx.... stay alone for awhile also gd.. hmmm.. nth to say le.. take my med + 2 panadol..~ doc say med n panadol cannot take together but i heck =X nitey..~ miss u!

2004-06-03T14:16:00.000+08:00

building more dreams for myself..~~
weeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee..~!!! =D

2004-06-02T23:35:00.000+08:00

hmmm...since e breakoff i cried alot nor.. so did he... but i still cant figure out anything..~ >.< but nvm..1 day i will know... tml have to wake up early go sch for dnt.. b o r i n g . . .~~ haiis... took med le drowsy but after awhile not le lehx.. eeekx.... sians ahhh.. today onwards must off com everynite when go orh le..~ stopid daddy can see e modem on not outside >.< hate it sia..~ i rather use back BB.. yucks!! tml do dnt sure seh seh =X hahahaha!! go ko0n le.. nitey!

2004-06-02T12:15:00.000+08:00

dun wanna think abt u..
dun wanna think abt u..
dun wanna think abt u..
but i need u..
but i cant stop thinking abt u..
i miss u alot.. why?
dun wanna think abt u..
think abt nth...
haiis..~
run away run away..
dun wanna stuck @ this time of my life...
g0nna do smth tt i pr0mised i wun do..~
but wat else can i do??
haix......... >.<~

2004-06-01T08:00:00.000+08:00

This song is for u......

Britney Spears - Everytime

Notice me, take my hand
Why are we strangers when
Our love is strong
Why carry on without me

Everytime I try to fly, I fall
Without my wings, I feel so small
I guess I need you, baby
And everytime I see you in my dreams
I see your face, it's haunting me
I guess I need you, baby

I make believe that you are here
It's the only way I see clear
What have I done
You seem to move on easy

And everytime I try to fly, I fall
Without my wings, I feel so small
I guess I need you, baby
And everytime I see you in my dreams
I see your face, you're haunting me
I guess I need you, baby

I may have made it rain
Please forgive me
My weakness caused you pain
And this song's my sorry

At night I pray
That soon your face will fade away

And everytime I try to fly, I fall
Without my wings, I feel so small
I guess I need you, baby
And everytime I see you in my dreams
I see your face, you're haunting me
I guess I need you, baby

2004-06-01T07:47:00.000+08:00

bu shi suo oz nth? oz nth oz nth.. end up? duhx. i dunno.. h0w? haiis..~ 1 mth break le.. think i wan mehx? u dunno how fan i am... everytime u come le dun leave.. if u me how wld u feel? haix... meet u sometimes also dunno wat to say.. ytd? nth wrong u come in scold scold watever also scold.. >.<~ haiis.. deariee how? kor how? jiejie how? i'm @ lost le...

2004-05-31T22:56:00.000+08:00

1 more hr we 1 mth le... wat's e feeling? anxious... budden e feeling for him no longer e same.... wat shld i do? tml going to see bball match..~ maybe go see dotter @ work.. hee =D just now go make hair... sui sui..! but kan ex sia..~ >.< awhile more must change back color liao sianx! hmm nvm..~ now still sick bth -.- tml dotter bring me go see doc =/ hahax....~ i go rest le.. miss nia0 nia0x uncle ahem ahem n blah blah...~ >.<

2004-05-31T03:08:00.000+08:00

confused.. >.<~ giddy n feverish... wat shld i do? talk to boon le i still like tt... ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh..!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

2004-05-30T20:32:00.000+08:00

today.... dunno worrs..~~ *confused* saw birdie.. he sho kawaii.. hahax.. then he no eat breakfast n lunch... feel like vomitting wor.. y wor birdie? hmmm....~ then today i seh seh.. play com till fever but i dun feel sick? weird weird nor.... home le i giddy..then go out buy panadol n dinner.. wait so long..nehneh....~ =.=x tml go back sch do dnt i sianx... haahx..~~ hmmmm..they jio me go cine again sia... shld i go? dunno nehx... tml birdie say wan bring me go see doc... he take leave.. how? i lazy >.< hahax...~ i go take panadol then go orh orh le.. nite nite ^^ (miss uncle) i dunno wat feeling i have now.. confused.

2004-05-28T16:17:00.000+08:00

arlo.... i update bloggie le.. ^-^.v.

2004-05-25T19:51:00.000+08:00

alot happened sia..~ dunno how to start so i shant start =D hahax.. but mostly all unhappy de.. my exams.. alright lah.. only fail dnt chi and humans. (as usual) dnt overall 27 =/ then chi n humans 49 nor.. heng jansen say help me pull up to 50 =D then chi..nb cannot! highest is science bahx..~ phy chao chao got 28/50 then chem dunno y i suddenly so li hai got 43/50 =D muahaha!! tian cai jiu shi tian cai.. ehhhh..!! bwahahaha... many many thingys happened.. think abt it also sianx.. e love ish fadding i dunno y..~ weird weird feelings.. hmmmm.. shant bother le.. =.= just now go take pic wib haohao..hahax.. so many pose sia.. till be bth.. =X

We Wanna Thank You by Big Brovas
Here's a little song that we wrote for you
Just for everything you are and everything that you do
We wanna thank you (wanna thank you)
We wanna thank you

[Verse 1]
Ain't nobody got my back like you
Or rap like you, or show a dog love like you
Some how you can turn my grey sky blue
When I'm havin a bad day you get me through
I appreciate you, and all the things you do
Plus I love and respect you too
And that's why just before
Every time when I'm cuttin a song
I let 'em know you is gonna be on
I'm just trying to say thank you

I sit here thinkin about you
If you weren't here what would I do
You know I need you around me
Without your love were would I be
I feel
Even though I'm far away your next to me
So real
All the lovin your givin me makes me just wanna say

[Chorus]
Thank you for the things you do
You picked me up when I was down
Thank you for the joy you bring
You turned my life around
(and I wanna say)
Thank you
For being there for me through everything
Thank you
For letting me be myself once again

[Verse 2]
You always come at the right times
Stick to the right words
Make me feel fine even when I'm hurt
Even with some hate
You show that you love me
I'm on your mind all the time, thinkin of me
That's how I know that you truly care
Anything I go through, I know you'll be there
As long as you love me I ain't goin nowhere
Cuz your all I need I swear
I really wanna

How do I say thank you for the
Things that you've done for me I
I can't explain the joy it brings to my world
You're my world and my everything
Since the beginnin, you've been there for me
So I sing this song to you for all that you do
I just wanna say thank you

[Chorus]
Thank you for the things you do
You picked me up when I was down
Thank you for the joy you bring
You turned my life around
(and I wanna say)
Thank you
For being there for me through everything
Thank you
For letting me be myself once again

Here's a little song that we wrote for you
Just for everything you are and everything that you do
We wanna thank you (wanna thank you)
We wanna thank you (for everything you do)
Just for bein there for us when we were down and out
And, for the little words that you said out your mouth
We wanna thank you (wanna thank you)
We wanna thank you (for everything you do)

When I'm feelin down
You are always there to pick the pieces up
And place me on my feet again
When your time comes around
Just don't let our feelin
You need it
You can count on me for anything

[Chorus]
Thank you for the things you do
You picked me up when I was down
Thank you for the joy you bring
You turned my life around
(and I wanna say)
Thank you
For being there for me through everything
Thank you
For letting me be myself once again

Here's a little song that we wrote for you
Just for everything you are and everything that you do
We wanna thank you (wanna thank you)
We wanna thank you (for everything you do)
Just for bein there for us when we were down and out
And, for the little words that you said out your mouth
We wanna thank you (wanna thank you)
We wanna thank you (for everything you do)

2004-05-21T22:14:00.000+08:00

just now ky n dear below my blk wait for me.. wanna go cine de.. end up tt si ky mai go -.- say wan go gym..~ liew... then end up me n dear go nor.. xiaomei earlier than us sia.. =X hahax..~~~ then we go up find her first nor.. then in lift hor.. i saw someone look like vic de.. then is him nor... -.-" we go up find xw awhile then go ljs eat.. actually is i wanna eat de end up me n dear nvr eat =x go buy gib xiao mei who dowan eat.. wahahaha..!! we sabo her =x hthen eat le go see ring.. =.= mafan sia...then xiao mei gave us alot of suggestions.. =/ then chose le..we go back up.. hahax..~ then play oz nor.. fish!! then fish till finish le..left afew more boots dear to ask from marmi =/ hahax.. then vic msn me..say i act dao -.- tt guy in lift really was him sia.. haha!! so funny.. then he told me.. after tt he wanna go smoke.. i confiscate ciggs from him =.= who knows left 1 nia.. he got another box.. stopid him =.= then he go smoke nor..come back then his friend disao... ask my name.. lame sia -.- after tt we oz wedding.. funniest wedding sia.. finish le then me n dear 1 2 3 quit =X haha.. then we se xiamei de screen.. they all dunno wat to do =/ so fun.. =D~~ hahax.. then me n dear *ahem ahem* wahaha!! if u know wat tt means :S then play play awhile more we left.. then saw vic @ road there.. then dear sent me home nor.. he v guai.. ask him go he go.. nvr roam ard =D hahax.. now he on e way home... walking home from interchange.. =/ lolx.. careufl wor dear ~~ i love u => will always keep e ring wib me.. forever =X hahax.. nitex..~ lata dear home le go shower then we talk talk.. tml going out again =) muackies..~*

2004-05-20T21:06:00.000+08:00

haiis...wat did i do again? talk to brother.. he jealous.. bro pmsg me he also jealous.. sms me also jealous.. haix... i dunno wat to do nor... >.<~~ he said i changed.. did i? i dun think so lor... he say this.. i feel like crying.. >.<~~ hais... y like tt neh? haix.... i dunno wat to do already.. too lost and confused.. perhaps e 1 who changed was him? hais... dunno wat to write already.. totally moodless... yuyu deariee ahh.. dun do tt to poor cheery brother le.. he cannot take it anymore >.< he's as hurt as u are.. hope tt u can give him another chance, urself another chance and e both of u all de r/s another chance.. perhaps when this chance is given, e both of u will cherish it more.. haiix.. dunno wat to write already... >.<~~~

2004-05-19T20:14:00.000+08:00

ytd nth much happened...~ hmmm.. talk to dear till abt 1+ hheex..~~ =D~
today dear came to my sch.. => then when he reached, me n ru went to fetch him.. brought him back to our class.. hmmm.. hahax..weird right? then ru n boon tee do art.. bin slacking.. then dear was like so quiet... nvr talk de >.< haiix.. then i also dunno wat to do.. talk to him..sometimes reply sometimes like nvr hear... fen nu!! then i walk out of class..he also came out.. i dunno wat to say to him so walk back in... then he went to ru's class.. i went over to find him after tt... he ask me wat happen nor.. i wanna tell him abt e ignoring and quietness..but nth came out..i just walked away.. felt like crying when no words came out.. haix... he doesnt know abt this.. was msging cheery all e way.. he asked who i smsing but i told him somebody.. then he jealous nor >.< after tt went home.. pei him awhile then i go home.. i shower then everything..ate dinner.. he went downstairs to get wind.. hahax.. cute hor? >.< then i went down after drying my hair.. pei him go eat.. then go buy ice cream =D~~ he dun allow me finish everything in 1 day >.<~ hahax.. but i'll listen to him.. then he sent me home again nor.. ask me if he's a nuisance to me, always coming over to my place.. dear ah dear.... u not nuisance.. i like u coming over.. it's tough for u.. travelling long hrs from east to west just to meet me... i know u dun mind e time n distance.. just to see me... i appreciate everything tt u're doing for me... i love u => *muacks*

2004-05-17T22:05:00.000+08:00

today go watch movie wib dear, ru, boon, bin and ky..~ hahax..sho funny nor.. tt bin keep angry..then go up go down e escalator.. so bo liaox..~ then during movie..ru wan gimme popcorn, i move dao her elbow then everything come out =/ another thing is bin nor..suddenly from beside dear..change to behind us.. dottie him.. then see e movie e person touch e ger cheek.. he suddenly come touch me also i shock tio =/ lolx..then i turn n hit him =X he piak my head back >.<~ lolx..~ after tt we go home nor.. then dear as usual dowan go home nor.. so he go my hse downstairs de coffee shop drink water =/ lolx..~ i finish my dinner le then go down meet him again.. hahax...~ after he drink le we go ntuc buy things.. lolx.... @ there stare till v long dunno wat to buy sia =/ hahax..~ then end up buy green tea de >.< bleahx.. then dear send me home again.. 2nd time today =X hahax... hao miss my dear.. now his com down.. hope it'll be ok soon bahx.. miss u so much wor hubby..~ meeting him on wed again =D~~ go talk to dear le.. nitex!

2004-05-16T14:11:00.000+08:00

hubby...
i miss u i miss u i miss u i miss u i miss u i miss u i miss u
i love u i love u i love u i love u i love u i love u i love u
i miss u i miss u i miss u i miss u i miss u i miss u i miss u
i love u i love u i love u i love u i love u i love u i love u
i miss u i miss u i miss u i miss u i miss u i miss u i miss u
i love u i love u i love u i love u i love u i love u i love u
i miss u i miss u i miss u i miss u i miss u i miss u i miss u
i love u i love u i love u i love u i love u i love u i love u
i miss u i miss u i miss u i miss u i miss u i miss u i miss u
i love u i love u i love u i love u i love u i love u i love u

always will be there for u.. i love u ("x")

2004-05-15T22:51:00.000+08:00

hmmm..today dear go my friend de church..b4 tt we @ wm walk.. then saw fong yee,kai yee, wen ting and wei ling.. hahax... after tt we like go library i think.. read books =X we inside like quite long.. after tt ask dear hungry not..he keep nono..~ then after tt he say hungry =/ ask him wan eat not he say mai... kiam pa sia~ LOL! after tt i pekcek say wan zham him then we go eat =x then eat le go find shan they all go church.. @ there so long sia.. my pigu pain..~ back pain >.< dear de pigu also pain.. when wan end tt time, got annointing.. hahax...~ dear see le almost cry =/ i dunno y =X then we go home..he as usual ai ki mai ki =/ /me bwg sia.. hahax... budden nvm i like it. LOL!!! j/k i miss my dear..~!!! hmm..till next fri then can see him >.< haix..~ lata we talking thru e night again.. hope we wun fall asleep while talking again =X hahax... now dear writing our story in forum =.= darling anji call us write de..she wait till no more patience le.. tml then update.. hubby i miss u..~

2004-05-14T22:08:00.000+08:00

hmmm.. just now went out wib dear..~ go cine =x we go there slack sia.. hahax.... slack also slack till few hrs~ after tt see dear play gb n cs nor~ he play till so ji dong =X hahax...then i @ there luff @ him say he die =/ lolx..! hmm..during tt time star`moon was wib xw nor~ they 2 loving worx.. 848 keep kena disiao by me..hurhur! slack till abt 5+ we go mum mum...~ hahax...i cannot finish my food =x so i gib dear eat..hahax.. i'm sho bad =x after tt go take pic~ me dear n star..~ hahax.. so many pose sia.. we see le also seh ki~~ LOL!! hmm..after we take le we pursuaded her to take by herself..then gib xw =X hahax... after tt we see her go kbox then we left~ i go home le dear still @ staircase =x msg me say he hot n thirsty =x lolx.~ so i go gib him tissue and water nor.. hahax..he drink till so xi wen..~ then when reach downstairs he say he finish le.. pengx~ hahax.. he reaching home le.. weeee~ tml going church.. dear also going wib me.. =p hehex..~ love him so much..~~ link shock tt me n dear wor.. dunno y also =/ hahax..~ lata go talk to dear thru e night.. lalalax... muacks dear*

2004-05-12T22:08:00.000+08:00

hmmm..just now went to watch van helsing (again =X) wib hubby, gone and jeremy~ heex... then dear wan scare me..~ end up he scare himself =X twice some more.. LOL!! then me n dear lie till low low..beside us gone n mimi..~ they sit till vvv straight sia~ like statue.. =x see like vv stress..hahax~ then during e movir i poke gone~ he ahhhh like e person changing to werewolve like tt..me n dear keep luffing.. hahax..! after tt go makan..i not hungry =X then dear buy water gimme i nvr touch =/ he angry just walk off.. go toilet -.- nvr even say! make us all worried.. kuku~ after tt mimi rush go back office.. so me n dear pei gone go find lingz~ dunno wat they say also.. then me n hubby damn warm~ perspiring like siao.. after tt he send me home nor.. b4 tt when we waiting for bus, lingz came out to look for gone.. ask him wan go dinner not =x hahax.. think they ok le bahx =D i miss hubby >.< thou i just saw him not long..~ heex~ love dear more and more le.. muackx hubby =D [wun forget today cos there were both ups and downs]

2004-05-12T10:07:00.000+08:00

now having breakfast.. dear shld be on e way to my place le bahx.. now raining..scare he drench >.< haiis.. dunno wat happened to him also..early morning wake up.. then sad sad~ bwg le.. go continue wib my breakfast already bahx.. love my hubby loads...

2004-05-11T16:34:00.000+08:00

nth much happened today.. maths..stress =.= din study at all ytd~ ytd dear dowan leave my place -.-" stay @ e playground.. then i go peep peep him =X hahax..~ after tt he damn down.. so go beach... tell him dun go le still go.. haiis.. dunno wat's wib him.. got prob dun wan tell me.. today his mood also kinda down.. cos of some thing tt i did tt made him sad >.< tml going out wib him..watch van helsing again =x hahas~ lalala.. see e er xin part.. dracula's babies burst =X wahahahaha!! =p

2004-05-10T22:19:00.000+08:00

just now go mac wib hubby.. then end up nvr study again nor.. haiis.. then tt bin go use my penknife cut himself..so disgusting >.< then i hide in hubby de huai li =x DISGUSTING..!! haiis...dear.. sorry for everything.. for 2 days b4..and esp. just now.. hais... will nvr say leave u again le.. i promise..
i wanna hold u forever..
i wanna kiss u everytime i see u..
i dun wanna let u go..
now and forever..
our love will nvr end till e end of time..
i nvr had a dream come true..
till e day tt i found u...
hubby i love u always

2004-05-10T14:25:00.000+08:00

hurhur..just shower out~ changed ok le..waiting for dear to reach my place >.< hahax..~ we going ruru hse there study.. budden dunno i will study not. damn tired >_< arhhh!! during geog paper..kuku THT wake me up when i slping till so song~ idiot de. hate her~ dunno my phy n geog can pass not.. during phy n geog paper i damn stress sia.. cos 2 sub... tml maths paper 2..heng 1 paper nia.. thurs SS and chem.. DIE!! 2 sub again.. then fri maths paper 1 and DNT.. kaox.. dnt nth de..i think =/ hahax...go dry hair then go out le.. *gonex*

2004-05-09T19:38:00.000+08:00

today nth much happen.. just now went lunch to celebrate mothers' day.. jie came over... then we go eat lor.. eat le... then dunno wat i do..eat e crabby till e shell fell into e cup of tea =x heng e shell is dry n nth de.. lol~ but i also dun dare touch e tea le..after tt jie wan smoke budden cannot..daddy n mummy dunno =x then go car take thing..she tio 1 green spider at her jeans =x ask me make away..then i flick it off then she step.. budden still alive =/ she step again n drag..WAH..see le i LUFF.. LOL~~!!! the we go JP..then go WM.. so sianx.... sign line~ hahax.. got many yd~ dear jealous le.. =x hahax..then come home nor... b4 tt go meet teng teng... now damn tired..no mood to study also.. tml go my laogong hse.. get thing then maybe i go straight to bin place? maybe nvr go there maybe ard my hse here.. hahax... tml see dear dear le~~ weeeee..~~ >.<

2004-05-09T07:20:00.000+08:00

hehex..just washed up~ cos just talk to deardear =x we talk thru e night =/ lalala~ muahaha... =x heex... he now go wash up then buy breakfast do hse work.. sho guai hor my dear? =p finally dear know how muched i suffered last time =( but now he know le...also gd.. =D he also did smth tt i cannot say =X wahahahaha~~ hmm..lata wait for jiejie come home then we go makan.. mothers' day de.. sianx~ hahax..then i getting another no. =.= bleahx~ now deardear talk same as me..actions same as me.. do wat also same as me..wah i bth =x j/k hehex...dear i love u~ *muacks*

2004-05-07T22:57:00.000+08:00

heh heh..time to update again.... just now dear dear come my void deck wait for me >.< hahax..i tot he still on e way..he come le haven tell me..heng i sms him as where he =x if not he wait till dunno when sia~ then go bin hse study..end up i did 20 MCQ then slp le =X opps* hehex...then dear dear peii wo slp~ he snap bin wor..snap till sho many =/ bwg..lolx.... most of all~~ i miss dear now =X hahax... lalala~~~ now stomach pain.. arhx...! whole day din eat much nor drink =x see le dun scold me wor dear =X hehex... go slp le~ tired >.<

2004-05-07T14:30:00.000+08:00

lalala~~ going to meet dear dear go bin hse study le >.< just now test..sian! study so much..2 Qn come out nia.. e rest cloze compre all..kaox...i wan bao xue guan ahhh!! finally my net is ok~ my com ok~ everything ok!! muahahah~~ sho sians...now dear dear on e way come my hse le =/ then we go mushroom korkor hse..hahax... ask him cook for dear =x hahax...k bahx...tonight then update more~ *muacks*

2004-04-28T23:05:00.000+08:00

today dar called me...in sch when i just finish lesson -.- heng i just walk out of com lab..lolx~ then he HUH till so loud i shock tio~ ask me in sch can use meh..not scare tio catch blah blah.. relac lah dar~ i told him i go home then call him..i called... after tt talk awhile he said call me back laster..budden nvr call leh.. then tt person...like avoiding? dunno..maybe i over sensitive.. haiis.. dunno~ confuse* dun wanna care nemore~ uncle chris also~ just now make him angry reminded him of e pass..~ sowwie wor uncle chrisieee =X hahax... *gone

8th World Wonder by Kimberly Locke

Woke up early this morning, made my coffee like I always do.
Then it hit me from nowhere, everything I feel about me and you.
The way you kiss me crazy, baby you're so amazing.

Seven days and seven nights of thunder,
The waters rising and I'm slipping under.
I think I fell in love with the 8th world wonder.

I guess that I'm just falling deeper into something I've never known.
But the way that I'm feeling, makes me realize that it can't be wrong.
You're love's like a summer rain, washing my doubts away.

Seven days and seven nights of thunder,
The waters rising and I'm slipping under.
I think I fell in love with the 8th world wonder.

It's only been a week, but it's coming over me.
It's making me believe that you're the one for me.

Seven days and seven nights of thunder,
The waters rising and I'm slipping under.
I think I fell in love with the 8th world wonder. (x4)

for dar~ i miss u darling..~

2004-04-27T22:09:00.000+08:00

going to bed soon..tired >.< dunno wat to do leh..so lost.. haiis~ >_< just now wait for dar to call..but no leh~ no call =.= maybe he too busy with his com..maybe forgot..maybe dun care..maybe not home.. so many maybes.. i'm starting to lost confidence in this relationship already.. haix.. =( i starting to anyhow think already... he like other ppl? got other ger le? dun love me already? so many stopid thots of mine.. haiis~ just now sprain my wrist again .... i'm so tired...feel like dying leh.. laode.. ni zai na li.. u send me de songs.. all very meaningful.. like all got hiden meanings.. maybe i think too much bah.. i dunno i also dun wanna think so much.. headache... >.<~ gd nitex... i miss u dar... haix..

他还是不懂

要说什么杯子都已经空了
闭上眼睛心里下起大雪
天寒地冻是不是到了爱情结帐的时候
只剩下各自买单的寂寞
为什么当我推开门他没有来拉住我

他还不懂还是不懂离开是想要被挽留
如果开口那只是我要来的温柔

他还不懂永远不懂一个拥抱能代替所有
爱绝对能够动摇我

要用什么融化这一片沉默在四周的冷空气里叹息
化成烟飘走过去的种种在心里滚成雪球
怕还没说话泪就会先流
爱不是他给得不多是不知道我要什么

他还不懂还是不懂离开是想要被挽留
如果开口那只是我要来的温柔
他还不懂永远不懂一个拥抱能代替所有
爱绝对能够动摇我

都是背了太多的心愿流星才会跌的那么重
爱太多心也有坠毁的时候

他还不懂还是不懂离开是想要被挽留
如果开口那只是我要来的温柔
他还不懂永远不懂一个拥抱能代替所有
爱绝对能够动摇我在第一时间拯救我

This song is for dar. all i wanna say is in it. haix..

2004-04-27T17:11:00.000+08:00

wooohoooO~ tt kuku dar bo call me.. sianx~ lol..he talk more and more like me le..which is okok cos i dun scold those =x i also talk like him.. all vulgar~ bwg.... now bin n ru keep scold me >.< haha!! bo tai bo ji will point bin _|_ =X he also will point me back so nvm..haha.... also will scold him fark u =/ learn from dar 1..lolx... he know i learn this sure scold me 1 sia~ just now pe did napfa..sian~ my sit n reach..cmi 1.. 36? LOL.. standing board jump 161.. My God! flex arm..8 i think..sit ups..38.... shuttle run 11.3s... will die~ all so lousy..today not in mood for pe... play badminton i sprain my wrist again =X lolx~ then just now go dental.. e dentist kan shuai sia~ also very gentle..heex~~ lolx..i told yane then she kanjiong wan go see =x ray, qin and mc keep asking how i know yane..ask y i so close wib her.. y they ask wor..mc say she sux -.-" bwg~ after sch we go out eat..come back saw npcc ppl..suspect mushroom is there..LOL..then we 1 2 3 shout MUSHROOM!! then whole unit heard us =x his friends also call him mushroom liao..lolx then he say mushroom enuff le not.. so funny sia! hahaha!!! then we go do dnt lor..do till i dunno wat to do..must bring my pump then can do~ sian... need to go buy switch and wind chime le~ lalala..tml! =D haha!! lalala~ now go nappy le.. tonight got things then update more.. =D~ i miss my Mr Lim.. hees~~ *muacks!

2004-04-26T22:41:00.000+08:00

ytd went out wib yane again nor..haha~ we took more pics! today asked shifu to scan for me.. dunno he will scan not tt person.. so lazy 1 =X then ytd me n yane watch e show.. damn er xin see e blood gush out =/ eeee..dun wanna talk abt it already.. then we saw bras.. hahahaha.. going to buy on fri =x lalala.. just now dar go simlim wib his sis buy com parts..shld be fixing com now bah? hahax... oz also getting lamer each day.. parking..then those freaks didi siao siao.. fark them lah.. cb~ tt link n dominic.. kpo me, jasmine and rene de place.. kuku shit... then recaro nth better to do come disiao dance in front of me.. pengx~ then dom extra again.. as usual.. crap.. sianx.. tml staying back dnt again.. my voice recovering soon. lala~~ but i ate fried and chilli stuffs today.. sekali tml no voice again -.- tml pe.. lolx... 2.4? napfa? sianx~ feel like failing... first time fail also not bad.. my phy test.. 1/25 HA! tt link also..BTH 1... now he duke le act big.. like v rich sia~ sec 2 kid -.- act act... nbx... buey song him le.. he my didi i also lan lan liao.. so kan irritating.. like e bijou sia.. they make a gd couple last time~ both small kids.. darn -.- dar's channel i reg and reg..keep bounce mail leh.. sian~ haiis...dunno when then can pass sia.. nth to do already.. go slp.. haha! i'm turning pig.. everytime go out.. dar call me ask where me who i wib.. he always say guy sia.. then tt time i wib yane.. 1 ger he say les.. lolx~ then say i more and more overboard le.. pengx... he siao de~ haha! but i know he kidding de lah.. maybe tml meeting dar.. he coming sch... budden he like lan lan come sch find me then go le.. -.- y he not like kc? always pei me go my place.. just now keep thinking abt dar..lolx~ miss him like mad sia.. =X nitex~ go slp le..wish me luck for tml's pe~ hope i can catch ICE slacking and tick her off again =X [evil me] muahahahaha!!!

2004-04-25T09:01:00.000+08:00

ytd went out wib yane..then 4+ go home then went to adrian hse.. i at there stone sia. lol..chia n me stoner de.. =x he going TP..wah lao i wan go de -.- lolx..i damn hate e uncle anthony sia~ abit abit shout.. wat only.. my poor auntie juliana.. =( ytd she hugged me..lol. i dunno for wat also.. heex.~ she's v loving and i love her alot =) hahax..always talk abt buddist to me -.- lol..took pics wib yane ytd.. got 1 ish piggy de..haha! so cute sia... we going to take more maybe later? lalala~ later meeting yane again..we go do hw.. then watch movie..then gai gai~ hahax..cannot stay out so late.~ these few days keep coming home quite late..lata father nag then dun let me go out i sian~ ytd dar called me talk..lolx..i abt to reach home he call..cartoon sia~ then talk to him awhile i go out le..told him i home again call him but i lazy =x liong and chris also called me.. budden nvr talk to chris..gave him miss call =x liong is i told him i no voice.. lol. really, i got ah pek voice >.< bth~ i finding ppl who has scanner~!!! *notice* hahahaha!! whoever got msg leave a msg in e tagboard[for my friends only lah] hahax.. lata then update more...

2004-04-24T09:54:00.000+08:00

h0h0~ ytd stayed back..i do till 2..then stop =x then continue..lol..4+ then leave... hahaha~~ do till lost.. sianx~ just now went to do cip..i took e bag then came home =x lata go back gib e bag then meet yane~ haha... they all hor..i bwg.. at first say go JE find yt they all..i told them lata alot of ppl lor..then they say nvm.. take e thing already i ask them go find yt izzit.. she say no..too many ppl..wtf? then reach mrt station.. they go see e route.. see and see..then ask me go where..i tell them e places they say far lah~ no ppl lah~ no shopping centers lah~ wat sia... then they ask me i wan go where.. i ans go home slp lah! then continue with my mag..haha! bth..so indecisive.. haiis... now cannot contact mingming.. just now wan find him de budden dunno how to find him -.- last night got a little voice back i called his hse.. his maid say he not in wor~ not in. sian? arhhh.. DAR WHERE ARE YOU?! idiot person. -.-" lata 4+ must go adrian hse.. more sian see those cousins... AHHH!!! they follow wherever i go 1..b o r i n g. in oz.. link acey they all kpkb.. not 1 min of peace. fark.. quarrel nonstop.. wat is this? link sec 2.. so small only kpkb so much.. knn knn..all he say is knn.. fark off lah.... cb shit.. crap so much. go slp le ciao~ lata must meet judy pass her my donation bag.

2004-04-22T20:23:00.000+08:00

hmm..ytd i got post? think nvr bah.. lol. ytd skipped napfa test =x cos of my wrist..today and ytd totally no voice.. -.-" pathetic me...today did dnt..din really do much..h0h0... tml staying back to do.. if can i try make e base..damn difficult.. have to go wind chime hunting soon..milk choc say popular.. sian~ so many popular in SG.. lol. my wrist getting better =p can go bball soon le.. h0h0~!! wah i hate my irritating father..everytime TALK TALK TALK. farker. !!! shit him. i CANT TALK HE KEEP ASKING ME STUFFS. shit him. crap. today's 22/5 heh. a extremely special day. me n dar 1 mth wor~ hurhur.. but too bad i no voice to talk =.= lol..i cant call dar talk.. even if he call me, i also no voice.. hahax... bwg right? i 100% bwg. =/ dunno wat he's doing now.. sianx... blah blah blah~~ hurhur..tml stay back dunno who wanna stay also.. ask hao hao =p hahahaha!! dunno yane wanna stay not.. lata ask her =D sianx... i wan see my dar!!! dar ah.. the thing i promise u.. abt not contacting him.. i will keep the promise de.. so dun worry ah =) hahax... lalala~~ going to rest soon.. now 8+ lolx..tv time soon.. honey water..actually not bad..lol..~ nitex!

jess ("x") ming [22march04]
1 month anniversary. 22 april 04 Hope that our love will never end.

2004-04-20T22:56:00.000+08:00

going to be 11 soon..time for me to slp.... my chinese comp not done yet..dun care.. lol. hmmm.. got back home from sch abt 2+.. shower and went to imm meet yane...after tt we go to orchard meet ts and jonathon..we go visit ter~~~ wling and shihui already there le..lol. when we going out of e mrt station, wling called and ask where r we..i say escalator =x lol. we reach hospital le..we went to buy fruits..cos go there empty handed like not so good.. haha..banana call wling ask her wat ter like..end up call him buy coffee bean for themselves. bwg. lol...me and yane bought apples oranges grapes and KIWI. lol. ter's fave.. but he cant eat.. we went up talk talk..after tt i played a game like o2jam on banana's lappy.. then me n yane go wash fruits.. so funny lor..we asked 1 nurse for a plate..asked us go back wait..end up nvr come -.- we go out ask another nurse..then he go get for us..so small sia the plate.. lol. after tt we go to e ward's toilet to wash.. e grapes keep falling sia..then roll to e floor. LOL. so histerical... we throw into dustbin and toilet bowl the soft ones..so iew? we brought out for ter then he was like @_@ lol..cos alot =x not long then me n yane went for dinner..by tt time banana they all brought ter's friends up le so i went off..b4 eating dinner..me n yane went to buy smth for ter...i chose a piggy..haha..yane chose e female 1....we got a box and a card...wrote it and i tried to figure out how to fix the box..haha.... sho funny.. @ taka sho many ppl looking @ us.. bwg... we finish everything le wab to 9 le..so we hurry go up hospital again see if can pass him..we went in then he was like @_@ shock..lol. tot we bu she de to leave -.- we pass him then he see le..luff sia~ when we told him to bring to camp he -.-" wahahahah!!! he said e piggy look like yane..hahax... abit lah abit.. =x gib le then he chase us go..haha...we went to take train.. then i got home first.. b4 we went to train..dar called me.... he ask where me..then he like shock =.= lolx. then he nag nag sia...say so late still dowan go home blah blah..then i really no voice lor..talk also throat vvv pain.. so i told him i go home then call him..i reach home le call him talk abt 10 mins or so..then i go rest le..cos totally no voice =X tt's all bah...hope ter recovers soon.. =D nitex..

2004-04-19T22:07:00.000+08:00

back to update..today din manage to do dnt cos yane say she wanna go home rest =x after sch me n grace go lunch nor..after tt she go her piano lesson then i go home =.= heng i clever call clement ask where is he.. lol. he tt time @ bus stop waiting for e bus tt we can take.. so i ask him wait for me nor..lol. clever? he wait like damn long sia.. haha..sowwie sowwie... then when i taking e bus to meet him, i saw zhiwei -.- always see him near bus area.. sianx nor... then he was like gib shock face..like i care =x ehh..think he going his church bah.. today my wrist vvvv pain..almost cry in class -.-" then tt idiot chong...pekcek sia.... i reading paper he suddenly come pull my hand call me go toilet fark..lol!! cos i scold him fark u =X then he pull my hand i shout nor..PAIN! then i smack him and scold again..he he sowwie sowwie..haha... i got home le.. ask my mama bring me go doc..then e doc say my name v familiar..haha... he ish chinese physician..last time my jie small tt time always go see him de.. lol. so of cos my name familiar.. her name pei shi..mine pei rong.. got tt pei pei.. hurhur! see le he say is sports injury.. =.= plus those few days i keep drinking cold water.. so the pain come back even worse..just now ate my medicine wib cold water..kena scold by my mum.. lol. watched tv.. 2 shows both i cry..weak me!! he called me..we talked.. then now he talk more and more like me le.. haha..bwg sia.. so kawaii.. =X he say 8+ going home.. 9+ where is he? still at his friend place.. afew times like this le lor ming.. can change ur habit of delaying time not? i'm sick and tired of it le..haiis...always wan talk to u, where e u? outside. friend's place. crap sia.. BTH. just now he probably read my blog bah.. no comments =) now my wrist hurts like fark! hell! i cant even open a bottle cap without feeling intense pain. let alone opening the fridge door? arh!!!! craps. tml gonna visit ter @ mount E.. sian =.= so far.lol. till now the time still not confirm..ahh.. maybe now i go slp le..but i need eat med.. hurhur!! alalala~~ taste so horrible..the doc bluff me say wun taste so bad.. bahx.! time for me to turn in and cuddle into the comfort of me comforter and bolsters and pillows and teddies and darling and baobei and sweetie..haha... tml's pe and i'm not allowed to do so many things? no bball. no badminton. no running. aiyoix. might as well i sit there do nth.. =.= lol..nitex~

2004-04-18T21:24:00.000+08:00

I just re-read his blog entries. haiix... dunno why i read till tears roll down my face. >.<~ i'm sho weak. too emotional i must say. =( where is he now? wo hao xiang ni ni zhi dao mah? haiis.. i dunno wat to do. perhaps he dun visit his blog already. it doesn't matter. let me suffer in darkness better than he knowing abt my misery. =) but if u really do see this, go d/l the song -Unpredictable by Keisha Chante. All my words that i wanna say to u are in there =) hope u really read this blog. haix.. hen xiang ni.. zhen de zhen de.. =( my life is so messy. my wrist hurts everytime i move my hand. owww >.<~~ why? why? WHY?! arhx.

Unpredictable

[INTRO]
Everything I do is for you,
Your unpredictable but I still love you

[VERSE 1]
Why you trippin, You were cool yesterday
Is there, something I can say to bring your smile back my way?
I'd say I’m sorry if I knew what I did wrong
But I still carry on cause my feelings are so strong

What else can I do? (What can I do?)
Do for you to prove (to prove)
Prove that this is true
I need to know cause...

[Chorus]
Everytime I think were all right,
Why you gotta go and change your mind baby?
Everything I do is for you,
Your unpredictable but I still love you baby

(Verse 2)
It's so confusing, things always seemed okay
When we couldn’t stay away
From each other for a day
Boy One minute you could make me feel so good
Doing everything you could
But today I wish you would

Why you gotta be? (Why you gotta be?)
Buggin out on me? (On me)
Won’t you tell me please?
I need to know cause...

[Chorus]
Everytime I think were all right
Why you gotta go and change your mind baby
Everything I do is for you
Your unpredictable but I still love you baby

Thought I knew (I thought I knew)
I’m so confused (I'm so confused)
What’s goin on (what’s been going on?)
Where did we go wrong (where did we go wrong baby!)

[Chorus]
Everytime I think were all right
(Everytime I think we’re all right baby)
Why you gotta go and change your mind baby
(Why you gotta go and change your mind)
Everything I do is for you
(Everything I do)
Your unpredictable but I still love you baby
(I still love you)

Everytime I think were all right
(Everytime I think we’re all right baby)
Why you gotta go and change your mind baby
(Change your mind)
Everything I do is for you
(For you, For you)
Your unpredictable but I still love you baby

2004-04-18T19:49:00.000+08:00

tml's monday..back to sch day. also my son's operation. man..hope everything goes well. =) nothing much happened today..just the usual..bah. wanted to go woodlands library to do finish my hw. end up wanting to go starbest play lan =x but both din go cos i tired went to have nappy..lol. i know it's lame. haa..played oz whole day. sianz man! caught afew silks and carps..haha....long time no silking..forgot how =.= hope my dad goes out lata so i can talk to dar..heex.... tml..need to stay back in sch for dnt again.. b o r i n g..! if can i wan meet dar sia~ lolx..but sian. after dnt i go home slp le.. cant possibly ask him go sch then go home =x dun think he so free lah.. stopidboi stopidboi...where are you? seldom talk to u le..miss u so much.. haiis...sianx!!!!! maybe tml or tues going to visit my son @ hos after his op.. hmmm... maybe going with kel, ts,wling,shihui and maybe yan..but dunno she wanna go not..hahax... Don ah Don.. dun tell lies le can? aiyoix.... keep telling lies i dunno wat to do with u.. arhhhx...!!! =.=" k bahx..tt's all for now..will maybe update later after dar calls(hope so) if not it's tml =) heh..

stopidger ("x") stopidboi

wondering if he loves me...dumb thinking of mine. oh well~
Life goes on for Me~

2004-04-17T17:56:00.000+08:00

today..sadded!! ahhhhhhhhh~ fark -.-" tt idiot person.._|_ me wor~ so unbelieveable~ nbx farker~ crap only...just now go back sch reach abt 11.45 =x hiaks~ workshop close @ 12.30 lolx~~ so go do nth..mr ho ask me measure e dunno wat..i sian~ wait for haohao to come..haha...after tt we go eat..weather so hot sia..+ he wear ncc land uniform..shiok!! when we wan go kopitiam, we saw otai..lolx..he dun believe sia..then we shout KELVIN then confirm is otai le =x wahahaha!! we walk walk walk..so WARM!! coffee shop so many ppl..end up we go mac..hahax... =p kel eat till so gentle at first..then i suan him..hurhur! after tt he eat till dman disgusting -.- bwg~ muahahah~~~ kel watch The Park then he shiok tio~ jump and shout..LOL!! this ish haohao told me today de...me n ru watch tt time we talk nonstop =x until e couple beside us call me diam =x dar now going to his lion dance base le bahx...later he sms me when he home~ lolx....he woke up so late sia today..1+ just now on bus saw afew ydks~ lolx!! ehh..haohao can see me from his hse..i stare n stare...see nth =.= i pajiao? maybe lah..hahahaha...i need my specs more often bah...

stopidger ("x") stopidboi

2004-04-16T20:09:00.000+08:00

today's friday..last day of the week...I'm suppose to be..relieved? heh~ tml's sat..slacking day!! hurhur~ today maths lesson heng don help me do =x if not i stand outside sia~ lolx..budden din really touch the book lor..my maths test passed! lolx..got 12/20 but not bad lah..first time i pass this yr =p stayed back in sch this afternoon to do my workpiece..was so tired...go home also damn tired..heng got haohao pei me sia~ tml going back to sch continue my work again..my ho ask me go -.-" lolx! dunno y now suddenly so into my workpiece~ finally waking up from my lala land? hurhur~ lolx~~ today's his bday..made him like sad? =.= mentioned her everytime..he abit pekcek.. expected lah..not in talking terms wib him already..sianx. mingming? nvr talk to him the whole day..more sian lor...haiis..dunno wat he doing now also.. =( just now watched tv..sho nice nor the show =) budden i cried >.< the mama sho good...think abt it now also will cry...even if she died already, she still went home to look after her children..but her children still took her for granted..why they treat her till so bad? first time she cried, she was like, powerless? she cant move.. i was like OMG? kinda lame lah me cos it's just a Show. =x but the mum's real nice. how i wish my mum was like this..but too bad.. my mum cant do much things now..she's a diabetic..mood swings everyday..how's anyone to understand me..my sis? she's gone to stay wib her friend..although her place is kinda near ours..but, she doesnt come home often..she kept promising me to come home..but did she do it? No. tt's why i hate her so much..she keeps breaking promises..haiis...then my dad? he's just so irritating! everytime he's home, he'll be so noisy keep talking abt things..like i care? it's just so lame. god damn lame. i cant take it anymore..this whole family sux!! that Mr Lim doesnt know one bit abt this and he expects me to call him? when i'm doing hw even? after my hw it was like 10+? going to be 11 soon..after hw i ate my dinner..wtf? how was i suppose to call him? finished my dinner, i'm like so tired? abt 12..so i gone to bed..next day he was like giving me attitude? wth...i cannot stand it anymore..i feel so lost...no longer feeling the love that i had in the past..then tt person? giving me attitude everyday also..like everythings my fault..haiis... >.<~ i feel like i'm breaking down. HELP!!! laode...help me? don..help me? they dun read this they wun know..i've got like no1 to turn to but myself..i have to be strong and go thru this..i will be able to go thru this alone. i have to and i will. =) have trust in myself. i will!! Holy spirit pls enlighten me the way to the right path of my life. haix...my life is totally in agony...